Conversion of St.
Paul.
Pope
Francis has been the talk of the town , rather of the world, ever since he
appeared on the Vatican gallery with his first humble utterance “pray for me”.
Just a few years in the Chair of St. Peter and our Holy Father has attracted
the respect of world leaders in the
corridors of power and the gratitude of poor refugees and immigrants on the periphery of society. And yet, when a journalist asked him: “Who is
Jorge Mario Bergolio?” “I am a sinner” came the frank and humble public
confession from one whom we all address as the Holy Father.
Our
self-conceited and self-righteous society of today, trapped by inhuman rivalry
and cruel violence, lives in a world of damaging denials. We maliciously hide
our sins and stubbornly deny we are sinners. We always accuse the other and
never admit our own faults, falsely pretending that we seek peace and justice,
and we moan: “Isn’t it , isn’t it
terribly sad, I am so good and the world is so bad”. Notice however, that we
Catholics, Like Pope Francis, admit that we are sinners.
At
every Holy Mass we begin with the humble acknowledgement of our sins, saying:
“Through my fault, through my fault to my most grievous fault” and then
we pray: Lord have mercy, Christ have mercy, Lord have mercy. In the
Sacrament of Reconciliation, we begin by saying:“Bless me father, for I have
sinned,” and then we are absolved with
the words: “May Almighty God have mercy on you, forgive you, your sins and lead
you to eternal Life. Indeed, we confess we are sinners and God declares us
sainta!
Today,
in the feast of the conversion of St. Paul
, we have an edifying example of the power of God’s mercy transforming a
notorious sinner into a notable saint, a Hebrew Saul to a Christian Paul. The story
reported by St. Luke in the Acts of the
Apostles in Chptrs: 9, 22 and 26; and in St. Paul’s own letters to the
Galatians 1, 13-17; and Phillipians 3,4-7 tells us of a self-righteous and
self-conceited Saul, a young Orthodox educated
Jew and a Roman citizen. Saul is all set
on a vicious mission to imprison the
disciples of Jesus Christ and wipe out their Resurrection claims. But suddenly,
Saul’s journey to Damascus is intercepted by a bright light; he
falls blindly to the ground, and a voice calls him by name, Saul, Saul, why are
you persecuting me?; a dialogue ensues; Who are you, Lord” ? Asks the blind
Saul, “I am Jesus the Nazarene whom you are persecuting,”,
admonishes Jesus. Saul is repentant and asks: What am I to do?
And Jesus directs him to the devout Ananias who is himself inspired in a vision
to restore Saul’s sight and set him on a
path pf conversion, from Saul, a fanatical persecutor of Christians to Paul, a
zealous Apostle of the Gentiles. This genuine
conversion from sinner to saint offers
us three reflections:
First,
that spiritual Conversion is always an initiative of our merciful God; It is
Jesus who first confronts Saul and admonishes him for his vicious plans;
Secondly,
Conversion takes place only in a repentant sinner, open to God’s forgiveness. Shocked
to realise who he was persecuting, Saul does not defend nor deny his sin but
seeks a solution: What am I to do?
Thirdly,
true Conversion is the gift of God’s mercy, turning a sinner into a saint. Saul the over-zealous Jew, becomes by the
mercy of God, Paul the committed Christian; from an aggressive persecutor to a
zealous proclaimer of the Faith.
In
St. Paul conversion means to be totally focussed on Jesus Christ; Now on his
slogans are: I live not I, Christ lives in me; For me to live is Christ; Woe to
me if I do not preach the Gospel; All I want is to know Christ and Him
crucified. I long to be dissolved and be with Christ. Now on, graced by God’s
mercy, St. Paul commences a “spiritual work of mercy” of admonishing the
Christians to shun sin and embrace sanctity.
We
have other Conversion stories in the Gospel of Sinner-Saints, like Mary
Magdalene, Peter, Zacheus, etc. and what is most characteristic about them is
not so much the turning away from sin as the permanent following of Christ and no
turning back.
The
Lives of all Saints reflect this “Conversion” spirituality. We notice also a
Conversion pattern in the life of a nine year old country boy, Johnny whom
Jesus admonishes in a dream: “not with blows” and sets him on a mission to be the Father of youth, a channel of God’s mercy to the young. Here too,
it is Jesus who initiates the conversion of Don Bosco who wholeheartedly
devoted himself to the conversion of the young and the poor, transforming them from street boys
to altar boys. He did so, particularly through the sacraments of the Holy
Eucharist and Reconciliation (Confession)
God
acts in our lives too. He takes the initiative and admonishes us too. Through
our conscience or through our family or good friends, Jesus admonishes us and
invites us to the Sacrament of mercy to be embraced by his forgiving love. Are
we in denial declaring ourselves: I am not a sinner! Listen, Jesus says “I have
come for sinners” and repeatedly assures us: Go, your sins are forgiven. Let us
recall also that scene in the Gospel where Jesus declares that the Publican at
the backdoor who prayed, “Lord forgive me a sinner” was more pleasing to God
that the self-righteous Pharisee at the altar.
Confession
of our sins draws down the mercy of God
and is the surest path to personal holiness, family peace and world harmony. Don Bosco’s
pedagogy of sanctity was to help his boys to understand that the Confessional
is God’s throne of mercy and not a seat
of judgement and condemnation. He made himself available at all times and in all places, for this
ministry of mercy. Holiness flourished among the youth in his oratory.
May
the Sacrament of Reconciliation for us, young and old, be an experience of
conversion of a prodigal son or daughter being embraced by an all forgiving
merciful Father who says: Even if you sins are red as scarlet will make them white as snow. "Go and sin no more".